Stand Still

That’s exactly what I feel about life right now.  For the past few months Sean and I have been tirelessly working on getting our own apartment.  Finally it dawned on me that there’s an easy way to do it, it would just take a bit of time to work things out.

Not only do we need our own place but I also desperately wish to go back to school.  So I figured I’d kill two birds with one stone and look into the obvious option of a Student Loan, numerous companies will give you the option of up to $40,000 a year and you don’t have to pay it back until after your studies have been completed.  So I started to brainstorm that idea even more and look into Financial Aid to see just how much they’ll cover so I can figure out loan numbers from there.

Even though I have a job and don’t even live in the same state as my father anymore, the only way I can be covered as “independant” with financial aid is if I’m either knocked up or going for a bachelors.  My original plan was to enroll in DeVry Online and earn my associates in Web Graphics Design.  Now, for the most part I know what I’m doing but someone with a degree (even if I happen to know more than them) will get the job because there’s a piece of paper proving they can do it.  Never mind the girl with the 10 years worth of experience, you know?

So now I’m considering the University of Phoenix Online.  It’s a Bachelors program and I should hopefully be able to have Financial Aid cover the bulk of the enrollment expenses.  The rest of the money can be paid by the student loan, and part of that money will be used towards housing.  I think having a more ideal environment to work with (ie: my own SILENT office) would make more sense then to have myself locked in a bedroom listening to all of the random noises that a full-house can make.

Unfortunately I can’t get a student loan without two years worth of taxes and I didn’t have anything to file in 2005 due to a very bad year, so I’m honestly unsure of what I can do at this point.  I’m not going to ask my father to co-sign because he’s already co-signed on a loan for me and the student loan would basically consolidate the existing loan and just give me more money to pay back to someone else.

All I want to do is get an apartment and go to school.  How come everyone else can just have it handed to them and no matter how hard I work I can’t get shit?

This is extremely frustrating.


A thirty-something code ninja + web diva. Former New Yorker who's passionate about web development, HTML/CSS, beautifying things and marketing.

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